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LOVE my new flash!!!

ok, I am in love. ¬†I love photography (as anyone who has even seen this blog knows ūüėČ ) and I just got a brand new wonderful toy that will help me take MANY more beautiful pictures….. my new flash…. YAY!!

So, without further ado, the pictures I have been promising…

this was Emily on her birthday……


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Another week come and gone, I promise I will get back to making this daily, it really is great stress relief. ¬†I love writing, and I love sharing my kiddo’s adventures. ¬†

This week has been really funny so far, I have been busy with friends, I have been busy with Emily deciding she is old enough to walk…. (she is not there yet, but we are entering a countdown of DAYS people, she is sooo close) and she is into ANYTHING she can get too….

My friend Alicia who is one of the best photographers I have ever met, showed me my coolest photo processing tool since the camera, and I am SO excited!!! What did she show me you ask?? Presets. ¬†Presets for my photo software program Photoshop Lightroom. ¬† Lightroom (LR) is my favorite program for tweeking my photos, adding cool effects, and fixing things after shooting. ¬†So, Presets, are basically free things you can download from the internet, and they are settings that you can add to your program to add really cool effects without a whole lot of manual adjustments. ¬† Anyway, long way of saying, they are really cool new editing tools, so thank you Alicia, and here is an example of one of the photos I took of Em this past weekend that I applied the “300 v1” preset too…….¬†

I just really think that is cool……I also got a cool new vintange one, and some black and white filters that made really nice pictures….

so, if you see me use a bunch of these effects in the days to come….. indulge me please, things like this excite me ūüėČ

Ok, so as to the title of my post….. I am going on a mission, this economy has spurred me to dig deep. This week’s challenge?? how long can a dollar last?? THIS week, it has lasted since this past Sunday. ¬†We have been able to go until today (Thursday) with about $1 out of pocket. ¬†Tomorrow I will be making us more bread, that should last us through the weekend, dinner is a cool new adventure in creativity, and I am being honest, I think I am finally up for the challenge. ¬†

So, that is today, I will post more cool pictures tomorrow, I am trying to clean up my photo programs and consolidate my massive amount of file space. ¬†Wish me luck with that, I will need it…. I have perhaps the most photographed children in the universe here.

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My favorite time of day

I have been looking at my life a little differently these days, and I thought I would take this quiet nap time to reflect on the changes that have made such a difference in my life lately. ¬†First major change is that for the first time since moving to Charlotte (in 2004), I have friends. ¬†Not just aquaintences, or neighbors that I occasionally talk to…….no, REAL, live, actual FRIENDS. People who I can call day or night, and who will drop EVERYTHING and bend over backwards to help me out, or listen to me whine, or make me laugh so hard I cry…… ¬†Can I just say how much that rocks??? Can I just tell you that when I reflect on the solitude that I felt after Jayden’s arrival in this world, the utter desperation that sometimes crept into me when the crying wouldn’t stop….. the fear that I would be forever alone in this city and in this life….. it is gone. ¬†Friends, having them, being able to just say you have them makes my life here complete. ¬†I feel like I am such a better mom,¬†because¬†of the support I get from the friends in my life, then I was without them. ¬†

Having friends does have its downside though….. I am only partially kidding, it takes a lot to be a good friend, it takes a lot to love and care and work on a friendship to the point that there is something so REAL there, that you no longer have to work on the definition of it…. there comes a point where you realize you are all in. ¬†That is an awesome feeling, it is the kind of friendships I have back in NJ (and MA ūüėČ ) but it is the kind of friendship that makes you hurt when your friend hurts, cry when your friend cries, smile when your friend feels joy.¬†

I know I am¬†rambling, but this blog is the only other therapy I give myself other then singing, and right now kiddos are asleep and it wouldn’t be nice to belt out a tune *wink*

So, you are all most likely thinking that my most favorite time of the day is nap time, right? ¬†I mean that would be the time I could connect with my friends (through awesome CHARLOTTEMOMMIES.COM) or the time I could sit here and blog, or sing, or whatever right?? Or maybe my favorite time of day should be when I am going out at night with all these cool people now in my life. ¬†Maybe it should be all the partying I am re-acclimating¬†myself too…… but it is not.

No, My MOST favorite time of day is rocking my little girl to sleep. ¬†Every night, after bath and nursing, Emily and I sit in our chair, we rock and sing, and the whole rest of the world¬†melts¬†away. ¬†There is a solitude right there in that moment. ¬†There is just she and I, and the warmth of her falling asleep in my arms. ¬†When she nuzzles her face in my neck and I can feel she sweet little warm breath on my shoulder, It is pure bliss. ¬†It is pure love, and it is the most quiet, pleasant beautiful moment of every one of my days. ¬†The thing is thought, that without the friends I have made in my life recently, I KNOW for a fact I wouldn’t treasure it as much. ¬†I never cherished it with Jayden, I loved him¬†fiercely, but putting him to sleep was just another chore of parenting at the time, and it was NOT something that I looked forward too. ¬†It was more time alone with the only thing that was my whole life back then. ¬†So I guess my point to this whole post is that having friends, having a “life” back, makes me realize how much I love the life Aaron and I have made. ¬†It makes me love the moments I have with my children one on one so much more, and it makes me look forward to bedtime every night just for the moment to hold my snuggle bug, and love her dearly for giving me a second chance to love this phase of life.

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Playing a little catch up……

ok, I am so far behind, I apologize to anyone interested in following this…… it has been a crazy weekend but a totally fun one too!

First, we have had some “improvements” done around the apartment, and that has been nice, but a little hectic.

We have had dryer vent issues for a while now and the office finally got someone to come out and take a look at things and fix the issue:

this was in our¬†ceiling, it SHOULD have been connected at least to our dryer vent, but rather it was lying unattached to anything, and this would be why the dryer was NOT venting to the outside of the apartment, but instead into the dead space in our walls **eyeroll** after they FIXED this, we now have a dryer that will dry clothes in ONE cycle, not THREE **second eyeroll** so this is what it looks like now…..

should have been done a LONG time ago…… but late, is better then never.

then the second thing that they fixed was my floor….this was my before-

that would be what the damn dog did when we were on vacation…… stupid, stupid dog……. ripped up my floor and we thought we were going to have to pay for the whole thing. ¬†Well the second step in the drama that is my sink was leaking really bad and we didn’t know about it. ¬†By the time we found out, EVERYTHING under the sink was destroyed. ¬†I mean SOAKED. ¬†So, that was not cool, and when the¬†maintenance¬†man came he saw the kitchen floor, felt sorry for us, and due to the water leakage in the bathroom, he decided to rip up the¬†vinyl¬†in the bathroom and fix everything the RIGHT way.

So this is our floor now-

(This is the same spot)

Looks MUCH better!! MUCH!!

So those are the home¬†improvements……. stay tuned for the rest of our weekend……

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Poll try

I just noticed a poll option on here, and I want to see what it looks like…… so indulge me

Who will YOU be voting for this election??

Now tell the truth, remember I can’t see who votes for who ūüėČ so don’t be skeered…….

Who watched the debate last night?? I am going to watch it today, thank goodness for DVR, I was busy last night, but I am curious to see it.  I do have to say the anticipation of November is about killing me, I want it over with already.

Anyway, enough with the politics…….in other news, the children seem to be getting over this nasty nasty virus, have I mentioned how much I hate childhood illness?? and how GRATEFUL I am to have primarily healthy kids, and have to deal with this so infrequently?¬† If I haven’t let me say it! I do NOT know how momma’s with children who are sick all the time do it.¬† Bless you all, that is all I can say, I do not think I could do it.

I will write more later, I have a busy day ahead today…….. we are going on some errands, making a batch of Applesauce, most likely whipping out another loaf or two of bread, and I am borrowing my friend’s massage table because I have a bonified actual massage client to give a massage to tonight!! Yay me! maybe a few more months of that and I will get up the courage to take my exam…….. finally…… (more on that later)……

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Isn’t she cute……

I had to post a few pathetic (but still adorable) pictures of Emily getting her breathing treatment from her daddy….. I think she is starting to clear those lungs, she is still got a WICKED cough, but it is productive, so at least there is that……


that was fighting it…… this is 5 min later:¬†

and still beautiful without color…..

Jayden on the other had is fairly addicted to his breathing treatments, he begs for them, and sits there super quiet and does the whole thing solo…… with him it is the “boogie getter” ¬†nasal aspirator that is his¬†nemesis…….

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Where is the love?

Ok, so I will confess now that I am a country music fan.  I know, I know, I understand the implications of such an association, but I can not help it.  I live in the South, and to be totally upfront, my love of country music happened in the North.  

I rode an ambulance for 8 years, and my friday night crew got me hooked. ¬†So, you can blame them, if you want to…… but point is, I rarely listen to any other kind of music. ¬†I do love almost all kinds of music, and¬†appreciate¬†even that which I do not listen too. ¬†I would say that the only Genre that I do not really ever listen to is rap, R&B or the like. ¬†Now the song below is not either Rap or R&B, but it is¬†DEFIANTLY¬†not my normal listening selections. ¬†I love this song though, I really do, I heard it last night and it totally struck home. ¬†I think it totally encapsulates what is up with the world right now, and sends a pretty powerful message, I copied the lyrics below because you really need to listen to the words to understand why it is such a deep song. ¬†

Something to think about. ¬†I know that I often ask myself this, and think about it, So ask yourself……

Where is the love?  click this to find out.


What’s wrong with the world, mama
People livin’ like they ain’t got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that’ll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism

But we still got terrorists here livin’
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you’re bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that’s exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y’all, y’all

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain’t the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don’t belong
Nations droppin’ bombs
Chemical gasses fillin’ lungs of little ones
With ongoin’ sufferin’ as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin’ really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin’ wrong
In this world that we livin’ in people keep on givin’
Makin’ wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin’ each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin’ on but the reason’s undercover
The truth is kept secret, it’s swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where’s the love, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the truth, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the love, y’all

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I’m gettin’ older, y’all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin’
Selfishness got us followin’ our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo’, whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feelin’ under
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feelin’ down
There’s no wonder why sometimes I’m feelin’ under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

People killin’, people dyin’
Children hurt and you hear them cryin’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questionin’
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

I think we can all take a lesson from the Black Eyed Peas on this one.  Love is all there is, lets remember it!

Here is a little brother sister love that should make you smile. ¬†These two love each other so much, I wish the world could follow……

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